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My *Sweet* Sixteen

It is *that* time again, folks.  Time to cross another item from my list of goals!  I must admit it is *so* exciting to cross things off that list – it really becomes a motivator all in itself.  I often find myself thinking, “What item on my list of goals am I closest to meeting?  How can I push a little harder to meet it ASAP?”

Yesterday I was out and about with my mother.  We ended up at Wal-Mart to pick up some books I had ordered online (I will be sharing those with you in another post, by the way).  While I was there I decided I was going to try on a pair of pants.  A size 16.  Why, you ask?  Do you remember last month when I posted about *finally* fitting into a size 18 again?  Well, those pants are baggy now.  Not “falling down” baggy, but loose none-the-less.  So loose, in fact, I can fit an arm in the side of them while wearing them (just about half-way up my forearm).

I truly thought that would be impossible, considering I *just* bought those 18′s a month ago…almost exactly.  Well, it was not impossible, folks.  I *totally* fit into those 16′s!!!  Excitement overwhelmed me, and I actually got a little teary-eyed over the whole thing.  I stood staring at myself in the mirror in complete shock and wonderment.

How could this be?  How could I be in a size 28 just about seven months ago?!  How could I possibly be standing here in a size 16 now?  The time seems to be slipping away so quickly and I am changing/shrinking just as quickly.  It is beyond my ability to completely comprehend it all, honestly.

As I am lost inside my own head trying to wrap my head around this whole situation, my mother breaks into my thoughts with, “Well…are you going to let me see?!”  My celebratory mode went down several notches at that moment.  See, you must understand that my mother began this journey with me 33 weeks ago.  The difference is that she has not been quite as successful as I have (and that is putting it mildly).  At times I feel as though I am just “rubbing it in” because I can see the pained look on her face as I celebrate another milestone in my journey.  She does not intend to do it, I do not think, but I can see it.  I can hear it in her tone of voice.  And it shows now that she rarely (if ever) travels to the gym with me.  On the rare occasions she does go with me, she often sits on the sidelines observing me trying new things, challenging myself, and sometimes making a complete fool of myself.  I find it hard to be genuinely excited about my “transformation” in her presence for fear of hurting her feelings or even making her feel as though I think I am better than her.

At any rate…I did not purchase the jeans.  In case you were wondering.  The 18′s are baggy/loose on me, but I figure I can wear them a little longer without any trouble.  I would hate to keep purchasing new clothes every single month until I am finished losing.  Maybe some people have that kind of cash lying around, but I certainly do not.  :)  So, for now I will stay in my baggy 18′s, and maybe I will try on a pair of 14′s next month…

Do you have anyone in your life that feigns support and happiness for you, but you can tell it is forced?  If so, how do you deal with that?

-Erica

Goals…check!

I just wanted to share a little excitement with you all…

I was just able to cross three (yes, THREE) things off my list of goals!

- Do planks on the floor (not only can I do planks on the floor…I can do mountain climbers on the floor…and reptiles, too)

- Do the ab dipper with straight legs (I can totally do this…not quite as many as with bended knees, but I *can* do it)

- 250 pounds (CHECK!  I’m well into the 240′s right now!)

I also added a goal, which may seem a little peculiar:

- Trust myself

While working with Denise today she had me doing some new (challenging, very challenging) things.  One was to jump up onto a raised platform.  The other was to step up onto a workout bench.  Both of these things scared me…to death.  I was afraid to fall, afraid to hurt myself.  Denise had all the confidence in the world in me, but I did not.  I actually said out loud, “I do not trust myself to pull this off successfully.”  It sounded *so* strange to hear that come flying out of my mouth…Denise thought so, too.  So, I definitely need to work on trusting myself (because I actually did end up pulling both of those things off, by the way).  Trusting my own abilities and not letting my own mind talk me out of doing things.

How is your list of goals coming along?  Are you actively working toward accomplishing what you want most?  Do you allow yourself to self-sabotage (talking yourself out of doing good things)?

-Erica

Weigh Day (week twenty-six)

Alright folks, it has been exactly 26 weeks since I began my journey.  Twenty-six weeks of exercising regularly, making healthier food choices, working on this mentality of mine (still, and always, a work in progress), and writing to all of you.  That is exactly one half of a year.  Crazy how time has just zipped right on by.

To see how far I have come…here is an excerpt from week one:

I will admit I met the scale this morning with serious apprehension (which is typical).  I am always afraid to find I have not lost anything or worse – I gained.  Today; however, that was not the case.  As I stared at my kitchen window, holding my breath, I slowly peeked down toward my feet to find…

I cannot recall (off the top of my head) I felt such anxiety greeting the scale in the morning.  That is certainly not to say that I have never looked down and thought about stomping on the stupid thing…but anxiety has pretty much left the building (of my head) when it comes to the scale.  What an accomplishment that is in itself, let me tell you.  For those of you who meet the scale with dread and nausea, you know what I mean.  It is nice wonderful to actually look forward to hopping up on that scale these days.  I am excited to see more progress, to be one more step (pound) closer to where I want to be.

Of course, progress was in short supply this morning (week).  The scale was still kind to me, but I am disappointed (to say it nicely) in my results.  This morning I weighed in at 247 – even (68 total pounds in 26 weeks…68.25 inches, in case you were wondering).  While that *is* still progress…it is only 0.6 pounds down from last Sunday.  Ick.  The only thing keeping my head in tact over this little hiccup is the fact that I know why…

Monday I had an appointment with Gwen (trainer) to get my measurements.  She ended up doing an entire fitness evaluation, which ate up all my time at the gym that night.  Problem?  I never raised my heartrate for any length of time, so very little calories were burned.  Boo.  Wednesday I did not go the gym at all…not because I did not want to, but because I truly could not (complicated and dramatic story I will spare you).  Friday, same thing.

So, pretty much no gym all this week (with the exception of Sunday’s workout with Denise).  I guess I should be thankful I am down at all with the complete lack of gym time.  Let me just say it felt *amazing* to walk into the gym today to meet Denise…and walk out sweaty and gross.  Excellent workout, and I needed it desperately.

This week should be back to normal, so hopefully I can get moving on my birthday goal:

GOAL TRACKER:
48 days
22 pounds

Thinking about the last 26 weeks (six months), how has your life changed?  Are you where you wanted to be right now?  Where do you want to be in the next 26 weeks?  What changes do you need to make to meet that goal?

-Erica

An Interesting Accomplishment

For those of you who keep up on current trends in fitness/exercise, you probably are familiar with the rope craze.  I; however, was not familiar…at all.  Until Wednesday, that is.

I was at the gym with Denise (getting my butt kicked in under 30 minutes) and she said the gym was hosting a challenge that day.  The challenge was to whip this giant, heavy rope up and down while in a sumo squat position for as long as possible.  (In the picture above, it appears as though this fella is doing both arms at the same time…whereas I was told to alternate so one rope would be going up and the other down at the same time)  My trainer told me it was seriously challenging.  She also told me the person who could do it the longest would win a 3-month membership (that could be gifted to someone) and 10 free personal training sessions.  Have I ever mentioned I love a good competition?

When I began the challenge it was much more challenging than I thought it would be.  After all, all you have to do is whip some rope, right?  The record when I started was 2:52 (that’s minutes and seconds, not hours and minutes, folks).  The record when I finished?  3:01 (again, minutes and seconds there)  Can you believe that?!?  I beat the record!!!  I probably could have gone a little longer, but I got so excited when I heard Denise yell out, “Oh my!  She just broke the record!”  I just stopped to celebrate!  Funny, huh?

The guy who set the original record of nearly three minutes was standing there watching me the whole time (which I did not know because my eyes were closed pretty much the entire time…focus is what I needed).  He was pretty disappointed that I beat him by only nine seconds…especially since he was super fit (and I am “just a fat girl”).  I left feeling super accomplished and proud…and angry at myself.  Angry?  Yes, that says “angry.”  Why?  Because I should have kept going and not stopped just because I wanted to jump up and down in a celebratory manner.  I beat myself up over it the entire night…and the next day.

The challenge was weighing on my mind so much, in fact, that even though I was not scheduled to workout on Thursday, I went to the gym anyway…in jeans.  I just wanted to find out who beat me…and by how much.  Turns out – no one beat me!  Can you believe *that*?!  I won the challenge!!!  Crazy, if I do say so myself.  Absolutely insane.

Of all the fit and built and slim people trapsing in and out of my gym…none of them could whip that rope longer than me.  It did not surprise me that those body builder-types could not beat me.  See, they are huge and built and strong, but endurance is not something they work on…ever.  Have you ever seen a giant muscle-bound fella on an elliptical?  Treadmill?  Nope.  They just do not do it.  Lucky me, I suppose.

Have you ever tried a rope exercise?  Do you enjoy them?  Did you feel like it was a good workout?

-Erica