My very first blog post…I thought what better way to start this blog than to tell a little about who I am and why I am blogging.
My name is Erica. I am 29 and live in Cincinnati, Ohio. I am a mother of two of the most amazing (and challenging) little girls. They are a daily inspiration to me. It is because of their inspiration that I have finally decided to “take on the beast.” My beast is my food addiction. I can remember when, at the age of 13, I started to gain weight. I had just broken up with a boyfriend, whom I “loved,” and was devastated. I found comfort in food – a lot of it.
As I grew older, and had more failed relationships under my belt, I found I was continually “growing” into new clothes – bigger clothes. I “plateaued” around 20 at close to 260 pounds. I stayed there until I had my oldest daughter (age 22). After giving birth I dropped 20 pounds pretty quickly – only to put it back on in the following year. To my surprise (and shock) when I found out I was pregnant with our second daughter (age 25) I weighed in at 292. I could not believe that I had not noticed putting on that much weight! My husband said he could not tell a difference between me three years ago and me at that time (yeah right!) either. After giving birth to our second daughter I, again, dropped some weight. I weighed in at 280 at my 8-week check up with my OB/GYN. I thought that would be the beginning of me getting “skinny.” Nope.
Today my daughters are six and three – I am back at my heaviest weight (for the second time) of 315 pounds. So many times I have tried and tried to lose this weight – and so many times I have failed. Not this time, though, really. I am going to do it this time – once and for all.
I recently stumbled upon a show called “Ruby” that chronicles the journey of an incredible woman, who at one point weighed over 700 pounds. Watching the first episode I cried, and I fell in love. I watched the 19 episodes Netflix has available for streaming in a mere three days. I could not get enough of Ruby – her joy and passion and love just pour out of the television. I felt like she was talking to me. I cannot help but feel like I was supposed to find that show exactly when I did. The way she approached her weight loss is incredible, and something I have never seen before. She assembled a team of experts in all different fields to beat obesity – including an obesity specialist, a psychologist, personal trainers, a nutritionist, and created a support group. During one of her shows (and it may have been the first one) she says she is addicted to food. She is an emotional eater, and her psychologist says (not in the same episode I do not believe) she is finding comfort from her pain in food. I have that same problem, but I have never realized it!
I have been toying with the idea of getting a gym membership for a month or more now, but have been hesitant. I was worried about feeling comfortable at a gym full of skinny people. I was worried about getting hurt. If Ruby can do it at nearly 500 pounds – I can do it too!
I really have no specific ideals about what this blog will mean to me (or anyone else for that matter), but I wanted a way to hold myself accountable. I also wanted a way to share my story so that maybe I could help (just a teensy bit) someone else gain the confidence to do it, too. The way Ruby has done for me. I am not anyone special, I am just another fat girl in a skinny world trying to get healthy – for me – and for my chicklets.
So, I intend to weigh in weekly. I will post my results here. I will also share recipes, tips, exercises, and more – basically anything I think may be helpful to someone else. If you decide to take this journey (or you are already on your own journey) please feel free to share any tips or recipes you have found. Together we can all beat obesity – but we have to create a circle of support and hold ourselves accountable.
My journey begins today!